Late Night Thoughts

(picture was taken as I was trying to be artistic but it failed but I thought I would share it anyways)

Do you ever catch yourself thinking about a million things after midnight. Right now my biggest concern is how the heck I’m going to pass the IB, volunteer, have a social life, eat healthy and workout regularly, have a stable mental health and have time to actually go home and visit my family. I don’t know how people do it, every night I go to sleep after a school day I fall asleep as soon as I lay in my bed, I am always exhausted and yes, sure coffee helps but it is just a temporary solution to a problem. I really needed a break, I can just feel how much needed it was. I might have woken up at 10-11 am everyday, but it was so worth it. It’s been so nice not to stress for a little while.

And then I think of how I’m going to try to work out more because I’ve been slacking lately, mostly because I’m just too exhausted but I want to do it more than I have been lately.

Then my thoughts wander off to how the heck I’m going to love myself, how do you do that? It feels like things like that are impossible, I really want to learn to love myself, but easier said than done. I’m a work in progress, we all are. I just wish things like these were easier. Then I long for someone else’s touch.

Then I think on how I’m going to achieve all these things I have in mind, all these goals and I simply don’t know how it’s going to be possible.

Then I go on Facebook and look at old pictures of old classmates and old friends, people I haven’t talked to in forever and wonder what ever happened to those friendships, even though I know it’s probably for the better and that there’s a reason for it, just having those memories brings up feelings, do you have these thoughts as well?